It's either she doesn't trust him or she thinks she knows him too well.
It didn't take long until he received a large dose of disapproving sms from her. She was, per admission, insanely jealous at all irrational costs.
So what's new? He thought.
The sms convos lasted from morning to evening, with a break in-between working hours.
What prompted the barrage was his decision to simply go out with someone from work. And, of course, she didn't approve of it.
No, they're not together at all. There's nothing official about their relationship. No exclusivity. If there is any existing relationship between them, it is something undefined yet evidently special.
Alright.
Clearly, it would've been them together if only there weren't a lot of things people on both sides who might end up beaten. Cliche-ish but there's no other way to tell it.
And so she's a special friend.
I really want to go out with her, he said.
She went quite ballistic, became paranoid at one point and asked him whether he was doing it out of revenge because she's dating other men.
He laughed it off and assured her it wasn't in the agenda.
It was cute for a while, despite the slingshot accusations that it is a date with a prospect, rather than mere dining out with a possible new friend. But when she was sulking too long, it eventually switched off his patience.
He didn't want to drag it out in the open. But he thought that perhaps when he reminds her that not once did he react negatively to her engagements, she'd lighten up.
Not once did he let her know how affected he was when she cited some boy as the love of her life. And when she went spiralling down the heavy emotions, ached for a little bit more attention from what's-his-face boy, he was there to boost her ego.
It was shaping into monogamy on one side while one end is open. Whose end remains open? It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out.
Still, this man didn't complain. He kept everything to himself.
Why?
Because that's how he loves her.
Anyway, now that he will, for the first time, have a pleasant harmless dinner with an interesting lady, he doesn't think she should mind.
You are on a girly frame of mind. Am not. So it's NOT A DATE, he corrected.
He was already irritated, found her reactions outrageous.
Are we having a fight? she asked.
He didn't answer and opted to let it go. Instead, he assured her that she'll hear from him the next day.
The next sunup, innocently he told her, I can't stop thinking of her.
Colossal blunder.
That sentence detonated a bomb.
This man slapped his forehead for chatting with her on bestfriend-mode without checking her vital signs.
And then he made another huge mistake.
HE: Ganon talaga. Pag andyan ka, eh di tayo. Kung wala ka, eh di hinde.
SHE: Ano?!
HE: Shit! No, wait. Mali yung tagalog ko. But you know what I'm trying to say, right?
She, fortunately, gave him time to explain what he meant. Nevertheless, she came short of telling him that she doesn't trust him.
That's how you started with me, she said.
So more talk, which was good. It turned out that's all that she needed to calm down.
Eventually, the restlessness died down. They survived another day and night. Thank heavens, they patched up things in a fashion that needn't be detailed here.
* * *
Why do you love me? he asked.
Because you take care of me, she replied.
Hopefully, she won't forget that this man will remain the same, come what may.
* * *
kids should know that...
By the late 1960s and the 1970s, jealousy — particularly sexual jealousy — had come to be seen as both irrational and shameful in some quarters, particularly among advocates of free love. Advocates and practitioners of non-exclusive sexual relationships, believing that they ought not to be jealous, sought to banish or deny jealous reactions to their partners' sexual involvement with others. Many found this unexpectedly difficult, though for others, conscious blocking of the jealous reaction is relatively easy from the start, and over time the reaction can be effectively extinguished. Some studies suggest that jealousy may be reduced in multilateral relationships where there is a clear hierarchy of relationships or where expectations are otherwise fixed. (wikipedia)
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